True to Type

Felix Russell-Saw

Felix Russell-Saw

Two years ago, I discovered Dressing Your Truth during an internet search on different types of beauty.  As a lover of self discovery quizzes and typology systems, I was immediately drawn to it.  And ever since, I've watched the various Youtube videos, read the book, and wanted to take the actual course.  

They gave me a sense of calm.  I felt settled, affirmed, that it was okay to be me, and beautiful in my uniqueness.  The idea that clothes could have such a lovely effect was fascinating.  As a type 2 with a secondary 4, from a family and culture that value type 3 attributes, that was profound.  My father especially was damaging in that area, viewing typical type 2 traits as weak.  And at school, being reflective and quiet were also negatives - too absent-minded, too dreamy.  For a large part of my life, I've been struggling to find a corner for myself where it's simply safe to wear my own skin, some place where I can finally exhale the breath I've been holding since I was a wee little girl, a nook where I'm free to let this knot in my stomach finally dissolve.  I long for space, but often feel crowded.  I ache for time alone but am surrounded by dozens of people all day long with so many requests that by the end of the week, I'm raw.

We have so many facets to ourselves, but so often only live out two or three.  The others could be squashed because culture or family teaches that they are not acceptable, or that there is a specific way to be.  Sometimes they are kept hidden for so long that we're caught off guard momentarily when they slip to the surface.  But it's now my mission - as an adult seeking healing and wholeness - first to re-discover my true self, and then to nourish and protect it mindfully.